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| Self Portrait 26.10.10 |
the ground beneath my feet.
the pitter-patter of the marching feet behind me,
all in succession.
the sounds of planes,
trains,
and automobiles,
round and round.
Dizzying, yet placing me at ease.
is this the big comedown?
the hypnotic end to such a great high.
this feeling in my head,
in my heart,
and in my being.
the drowning in eternal
internal sunset
truth be told,
this is the most human i've ever felt.
crash landing in an emotional shit storm,
i acted,
i pretended,
"and the award for best actor"
me
but now the consequences for my actions.
the fact that i wanted to numb myself
with all things anti me,
death has come for me
from above,
numbness subsided and now back to reality.
XXXMED
