This Makes Me Happy!

This is JJ. He makes me happy.

Pokémon Apokélypse: Live Action Trailer HD

Need I say more, this is so funny but also kind of cool.

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Do you look at me and see that I am no longer the same,

that I have become monotonous?

Was I fun and now you've moved on

because I'm no longer offering you excitement?

You stare blankly past my eyes

and past my soul.

The very parts of me that you once loved,

and yet you no longer do.

You try and hide the fact

that I am no longer amusing to you,

but it is in fact written upon your face.

"Bored to Death"

It says.

In your eyes.

In your letter.

Just let me know, put me out of my misery

So I shall know the end is here.

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With you here I feel lost.

As though time itself is moving slowly,

Constantly hiding and betraying my kindness.

Sometimes you make me wonder if I am too trusting.

I think about you and I see it behind your eyes,

that you are not being honest,

that you are hiding away apart of yourself from me.

Names, names and places,

anonymous places and faces.

For once I feel as though the bullet is in my heart,

all jagged and broken.

Tearing out my love,
my compassion,
and my tenderness,

leaving me.

Am I just an empty shell of a loveless man?

Does it not please you,

to see me hurting,

and to do nothing

and to say nothing

Nothing

Nothing

the emptiness and quietness of the hallowed soul.

Is it okay that I love you far away,

distant,

and dissonant.

Pale blank utopia

without the disillusionment of heart aches and heartpains.

You sadden me,

with all your mystery.

Mystery so mysterious

that I weep for those who know

what is the dystopian minefield of your heart

the bleakness of a world unknown.

I share

I share

feelings,

thoughts,

the truth,

but you hide and cower,

trying to shield you from the light.

The blinding and all consuming light,

you know not that it radiates from inside you.

The light is you own

you are consuming yourself.

Bright bright and drowning out the shadows,

drowning me out .

It is a cold light,

chill and bright.

Your warmth is leaving

I am left in the cold aftermath.

A devastating

and shrill

and piercing cold

that hurts to the touch,

blinds the sight, and kills happiness.

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I love the terribleness of this picture, out of focus yet expressing perfectly my idea. 

Today we should mourn the innocent.

Today we learn that the blind are truly leading the blind and as they inch towards the abyss we should do everything in our power to stop them.

Today I will not stand idly by and be a spectator to the impending demise of my dear friends.

Today I shall voice my opinion on things that matter.

Yesterday I was a buzzard watching as the world went about it's machinations.

Yesterday I was just a cog in the machine, yet today I feel as though I am that very machine.

The pieces have all fit together and they are working.

Yesterday was a lifetime ago and tomorrow may very well be the end.

But I chose to live in this moment where my sanity, compassion and the very nature of my being are not questioned.

Happiness

A year ago today I set certain things in motion that ultimately led to happiness. I had been grappling with decisions that would have negatively upended my life and when all was said and done I made the right decision. Sure some people were not happy with that decision and I was mocked and ridiculed for months and months, in fact to this day I feel as though certain people hate the decision, but it was mine and mine alone to make. I was tired of the corruption, the dishonesty and the lies. I was tired of trying to give 100% when everyone around be was doing not even .01% of what I was doing. Truth be told I am happier now than I have been in a long time. Are there things that I would like to take back from the last year or so, yes, but I will not, everything is done for a reason. Today, all I can say is, the world is crashing down around me and I am standing on the edge of armageddon, in the shadow of sanity, and I am happy.

XXX MED

New

I'm starting a new blog, this one will push the boundaries of my writing by allowing me to share my day with you guys both by writing and maybe visually (via pictures and video).

Another End, Another Begining

So 2009 is almost over and it's about time for me to resume blogging, including the dreaded top 10 lists, although seeing how much this year sucked my list will most likely be top 5 lists. Plus I will also begin to more extensively blog about everyday happenings.

Octahedron - Why It's The Most Original of 2009

After weeks of bombarding myself with music I consider subpar I found something from this year that's really good. 2009 has been shaping up to be a terrible year for music. 'Boom Boom Pow' is the pinnacle of what people find cool and interesting but that song is the equivalent of being repeatedly skull fucked. Don't get me wrong the song is catchy, infectious, and everything Pop music should be, but the only question that I ask, is it a good song? A couple of weeks ago I had the opportunity to buy this album (and when I say buy, I went to the store and paid for it. No iTunes this time) and it's been mesmerizing. It's the equivalent of acoustic Prog. Rock. The opening track 'Since We've Been Wrong' with it's beautiful intro of near silence and synthesizers one wonders why this track hasn't been heard everywhere. 'With Twilight As My Guide' is another masterpiece Cedric Bixler-Zavala & Omar Rodriguez-Lopez are gods among men. This reminds me of why I miss At the Drive In.